This and That

Haven't wrote a blog for a while, but not much new going on here. I'm on the fourth book of the Twil.ight saga...I know I'm addicted I have read the first three books within two weeks or less, and I'm almost half way through the fourth book! All I've been doing is coming home and reading! Still not pregnant, going to my doctors appt on Monday in a weird way I'm looking forward to that, if you can look forward to going to your OB. But, just want them to do some tests or something to convince me there is nothing wrong with me! I'm starting to think about acupuncture, my friend knows a lady that has a 100% success rate for helping women get pregnant! I've been holding out, but I think after my doctor appt, I might take it more seriously.
Anyways, this past weekend my Dad and stepmom came to visit, I LOVE visitors! We had a good time, although we didn't do much I just love to sit around and visit with them. Their trip was too short, but we'll see them soon enough for a family reunion!! I'm looking forward to seeing Aunts and Uncles and cousins I haven't seen in a long time!
Today, I bought a webcam, my sister convinced me that I should get one so we can skype, I'm kind of excited, I'll get to see my niece too while we are doing it, so that will be fun! I've never used skype, so I hope it works!! It was super easy to sign up! ALso, my sister might be coming to visit me, my husband is going out of town for the weekend, so I thought it would be fun to have her come out for the weekend while hes gone! I really hope she is able to come, it will be so great to spend some time with her, I KNOW we will have a blast!
Sorry for all the randomness!

Team..

So, I never would have imagined myself reading Twi.light, but I'm in a book club and somebody chose it to read. I was just talking to somebody at work that is IN LOVE with it and telling her that I just don't see myself getting into it. Well, I read the first book this weekend, started on Saturday and finished Sunday...it was good! I couldn't put it down, I always wanted to know what was going to happen next, and I want to start the next one already! If I had to choose I think I would say TEAM ED.WARD! I think that might be because Jacob wasn't really in this book too much, but I kind of want to watch the movie now too. I feel like a complete dork for saying that?! All the other books that have been chosen have been smut, and this was a nice change of pace :)
I can see why girls get into this vampire stuff its like a mystery, kind of sexy. But I'm not so sure about the pale skin..I don't find them attractive whatsoever! Anybody else read Twilight? What did you think?

Blah Blah Blah

First, I have to say, is it really only Tuesday?!?!? It feels like Thursday, it might be a long week...

This post is really just me needing to get things off my mind, I am feeling a little depressed lately about not being pregnant yet. I'm sure I'll be fine tomorrow, but today, as I was driving home from work, I almost started crying for nothing, and I'm not really a crier. And I'm sure I've said this stuff before in other posts, but oh well. I hate being stressed out about what days to BD with my husband, I mean I really HATE it! Even if I told myself that I should take a break from TTC, I KNOW in the back of my mind I will always be trying to figure out what day it is and if I'm going to be OV'ing soon. I really did not think when I started this journey it was going to take a year to get pregnant. I wish I would have started casually trying long before, knowing what I know now. I'm sure it doesn't help that I'm not around family because I think that would help take my mind off of things a bit. But being here, and not having a great social life and NO family of course besides my husband, I think it makes it a little harder. Maybe my husband was right that I shouldn't read all these baby blogs, but I truly enjoy reading them. I don't want to be that girl that gets upset when somebody else gets pregnant. I don't want to be that girl that people hide their pregnancies because they think I might get upset. And maybe I'm being a baby about it, but it is just SO frustrating. I guess the one thing I get to look forward to this month is my doctors appt on Aug 30th. My friend and I were talking today that I should go in to the doctors office with a list of things they should test me for to see why I'm not getting pregnant. They will probably think I am nuts! It might not have helped that somebody reminded me yesterday that if I didn't have my miscarriage that I would have found out this week or next week if I was having a boy or a girl.

Anyways I'm on CD8, so still a bit to go this month...lets hope my doctors visit at the end of the month will actually be an ultrasound with a heartbeat...

My Ghetto Garden and Just Relax!

So, as you may know, if you read my blog :) I have a little container garden on my deck. Well, I thought I would take pictures to show everybody how horrible it looks, mainly the plants themselves. I have to admit, my tomatoes are great!! As you will see, but the other two, not so much!

This is my tomato plant, if I can say so myself it looks pretty good! And you can see some tomatoes on there! I think I have picked off over 10 of them!

This on the other hand is my cucumber plant, or what is left of it...it is so horrible, just 4 weeks ago it was so full and had yellow flowers on it

REALLY?! that is all I have to say about that, my ONE deformed cucumber

Here is what is supposed to be mixed flowers, there are TWO freaking flowers on this thing, and the rest is weeds!!!

Lets just say I never said I was Ms Green Thumb, but geez, one out of three?! I have to admit, I am proud of my tomatoes, and my Dad was a little jealous I had tomatoes before he did.

Lastly, would like to share a convo I had with DH about TTC, well because he was basically telling me to relax, and that is why I'm not pregnant...

ME: I just realized that I don't even read the news anymore, I just read blogs
DH: Let me guess what kind of blogs they are..
ME: Well I can't help it, but most are baby blogs
DH: Did you ever think that is why you can't get pregnant, because you think too much about it? My Mom got pregnant with me when she took off a week from work, it was less stress.
ME: blank stare....thinking to myself, did he just tell me to relax??

Well, I thought it was funny, my own husband telling me to relax, isn't that how everybody gets pregnant?! Especially those girls on 16 and Pregnant! :)

New York, New York, New York

In New York, concrete jungles where dreams are made of, oh
theres nothing you can't do, now your in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you, lets hear it for New York,
New York, New York
Oh sorry, I got carried away! As you might have figured out, I was in New York this weekend with my mother in law, sister in law, my DHs Aunt and cousins, it was a girls weekend! We had a lot of fun! We walked down 5th Avenue and Broadway, did some shopping. We went to SoHo, Little Italy and Chinatown and also took a tour of Brooklyn! The weather was HOT HOT HOT!!! I don't think I have ever sweat so much in my life! Here are a couple pics of our trip.

This is Little Italy, it was so cute! I think that might have been my favorite area, and we ate at the cutest restaurant and the food was great!

This is a pic of the group minus a cousin that was taking the picture, I am the one on the far right.

Lastly, here is a picture down Broadway.

I would love to go back and do a tour of Uptown, which includes Harlem, we had the tickets to do it, and we were on the way there, but the bus we were on broke down, so we had to get on another bus, and didn't realize they were going on a different tour. It is so hard to see everything in New York in just a few days! I would also like to see Greenwich Village, it looked like a very nice area. I do know that I could never live in New York, it is way too crowded for me!

Adoption

No, I'm not at the point where I'm going to start researching adoption and giving up on my body, but for some reason the other day, I thought to myself, that it would be nice to adopt one day. To give a child who may not have had a great life, a better chance at life. Today, DH emailed me and all it said was lets adopt from Haiti. I really thought he was joking, so I called him and he was for real! I swear he surprises me sometimes! I like the thoughts of adopting from Haiti, but I think I would want to adopt from the US, but then again I haven't given it too much thought. I would really love to have the experience of carrying and birthing my own child, if I will ever be so blessed! I might start looking into it to see what it entails but from stories I read it could take years. Anybody else ever think about adopting?

On the TTC front, I'm still waiting for my positive OPK, but have noticed that POAS everyday gives me a sense of calmness, really? has my life come to POAS everyday so I know when to BD with my husband!?!? But really I don't think about it as much and worry if we did it on the right day or not. One good thing, is my TWW shouldn't be too bad because it will be broken up by a trip to NY!! Two more cycles and I will be at the ONE YEAR mark of TTC!!! wOAH, that went by rather quickly! Lets hope this one or the next sticks! Studies say that there is a greater chance at conceiving after this many months right?!

That Thing

So, we've been TTC for about 10 months now. Back in April, I was getting frustrated and told my husband, "i'm going to POAS everyday until I ovulate" sounds so sexy right? Well, I was discreet about it, and he only saw me do it once. So after my miscarriage I am starting to use them again after a month of failure. Last week, my husband informs me that there is an app on our phone that tracks ovulation, and he proceeds to watch me download it and put in when I started my period, and it calculates when you will ovulate. He didn't think it was too exciting. I also didn't think the app was that great, and I think I removed it from my phone. So the other day, out of nowhere my
husband says, "so, you have that thing next week?"
ME: "what thing?" so he proceeds to tap my vag
husband: that thing?
ME: you mean do I ovulate next week, and how did you know that?
husband: yeah, when we were looking at that app on your phone it looks like you ovulate a week after your period, and I know you just ended it.
Me: oh yeah, its next week
I was almost cracking up, I would have NEVER thought he would even think about that, he is usually the one that says to relax and not worry about it. But I have to admit, it made me feel good that he was thinking about it, and thinking of me, knowing how much I want to be pregnant and have a baby.