My Ghetto Garden and Just Relax!

So, as you may know, if you read my blog :) I have a little container garden on my deck. Well, I thought I would take pictures to show everybody how horrible it looks, mainly the plants themselves. I have to admit, my tomatoes are great!! As you will see, but the other two, not so much!

This is my tomato plant, if I can say so myself it looks pretty good! And you can see some tomatoes on there! I think I have picked off over 10 of them!

This on the other hand is my cucumber plant, or what is left of it...it is so horrible, just 4 weeks ago it was so full and had yellow flowers on it

REALLY?! that is all I have to say about that, my ONE deformed cucumber

Here is what is supposed to be mixed flowers, there are TWO freaking flowers on this thing, and the rest is weeds!!!

Lets just say I never said I was Ms Green Thumb, but geez, one out of three?! I have to admit, I am proud of my tomatoes, and my Dad was a little jealous I had tomatoes before he did.

Lastly, would like to share a convo I had with DH about TTC, well because he was basically telling me to relax, and that is why I'm not pregnant...

ME: I just realized that I don't even read the news anymore, I just read blogs
DH: Let me guess what kind of blogs they are..
ME: Well I can't help it, but most are baby blogs
DH: Did you ever think that is why you can't get pregnant, because you think too much about it? My Mom got pregnant with me when she took off a week from work, it was less stress.
ME: blank stare....thinking to myself, did he just tell me to relax??

Well, I thought it was funny, my own husband telling me to relax, isn't that how everybody gets pregnant?! Especially those girls on 16 and Pregnant! :)

New York, New York, New York

In New York, concrete jungles where dreams are made of, oh
theres nothing you can't do, now your in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you, lets hear it for New York,
New York, New York
Oh sorry, I got carried away! As you might have figured out, I was in New York this weekend with my mother in law, sister in law, my DHs Aunt and cousins, it was a girls weekend! We had a lot of fun! We walked down 5th Avenue and Broadway, did some shopping. We went to SoHo, Little Italy and Chinatown and also took a tour of Brooklyn! The weather was HOT HOT HOT!!! I don't think I have ever sweat so much in my life! Here are a couple pics of our trip.

This is Little Italy, it was so cute! I think that might have been my favorite area, and we ate at the cutest restaurant and the food was great!

This is a pic of the group minus a cousin that was taking the picture, I am the one on the far right.

Lastly, here is a picture down Broadway.

I would love to go back and do a tour of Uptown, which includes Harlem, we had the tickets to do it, and we were on the way there, but the bus we were on broke down, so we had to get on another bus, and didn't realize they were going on a different tour. It is so hard to see everything in New York in just a few days! I would also like to see Greenwich Village, it looked like a very nice area. I do know that I could never live in New York, it is way too crowded for me!

Adoption

No, I'm not at the point where I'm going to start researching adoption and giving up on my body, but for some reason the other day, I thought to myself, that it would be nice to adopt one day. To give a child who may not have had a great life, a better chance at life. Today, DH emailed me and all it said was lets adopt from Haiti. I really thought he was joking, so I called him and he was for real! I swear he surprises me sometimes! I like the thoughts of adopting from Haiti, but I think I would want to adopt from the US, but then again I haven't given it too much thought. I would really love to have the experience of carrying and birthing my own child, if I will ever be so blessed! I might start looking into it to see what it entails but from stories I read it could take years. Anybody else ever think about adopting?

On the TTC front, I'm still waiting for my positive OPK, but have noticed that POAS everyday gives me a sense of calmness, really? has my life come to POAS everyday so I know when to BD with my husband!?!? But really I don't think about it as much and worry if we did it on the right day or not. One good thing, is my TWW shouldn't be too bad because it will be broken up by a trip to NY!! Two more cycles and I will be at the ONE YEAR mark of TTC!!! wOAH, that went by rather quickly! Lets hope this one or the next sticks! Studies say that there is a greater chance at conceiving after this many months right?!

That Thing

So, we've been TTC for about 10 months now. Back in April, I was getting frustrated and told my husband, "i'm going to POAS everyday until I ovulate" sounds so sexy right? Well, I was discreet about it, and he only saw me do it once. So after my miscarriage I am starting to use them again after a month of failure. Last week, my husband informs me that there is an app on our phone that tracks ovulation, and he proceeds to watch me download it and put in when I started my period, and it calculates when you will ovulate. He didn't think it was too exciting. I also didn't think the app was that great, and I think I removed it from my phone. So the other day, out of nowhere my
husband says, "so, you have that thing next week?"
ME: "what thing?" so he proceeds to tap my vag
husband: that thing?
ME: you mean do I ovulate next week, and how did you know that?
husband: yeah, when we were looking at that app on your phone it looks like you ovulate a week after your period, and I know you just ended it.
Me: oh yeah, its next week
I was almost cracking up, I would have NEVER thought he would even think about that, he is usually the one that says to relax and not worry about it. But I have to admit, it made me feel good that he was thinking about it, and thinking of me, knowing how much I want to be pregnant and have a baby.

How Long Have You Been Together?

11 years!! Really?! That is always the reaction I get when people ask how long DH and I have been together. Well, we met in high school! He moved to my school in 10th grade. I was actually out sick his first day. My sister came home from school, and told me there was a new kid in class and he talked funny..haha. Well, my sister is from Virginia, little did she realize she is the one that had an accent. Anyways, the next day when I went to school, I realized quickly who he was. For one, the high school we went to only had about 10 black kids, and he was HOT!!! :) I truly don't remember how we started talking, but eventually we started writing notes back and forth during class, and if you can believe it I asked HIM on our first date in a note of course :) He wrote back and said "Is J asking W on a date?" and of course I had to say no, that I just wanted him to hang out with my sister and I and a friend. Well, he said yes. He is 9 months younger than I am, so, on our first date, and many dates after I had to drive haha. So, I picked him up from his house, which was awkward, because his Dad was outside mowing the grass, and his Mom peaked out the door, and I didn't even get out of the car!!! I realize now how disrespectful that was, but I was 16, and not saying I was not a good kid, I just didn't think about it at the time...oops. So we went and saw a movie and went bowling. Been together ever since, besides a few "high school break ups" We made it past high school and college, we moved out of state, and after about 9 years, he proposed, on Christmas Eve in 2007 and we married in May 2009! So, its funny now to say that we have only been married for just over a year!!
Now, that we are TTC its kind of annoying when people tell us to wait, that we should enjoy being newlyweds, but really, we have been together for a long time, I don't think we need to wait. My husband always says, what are we waiting for?

Thankful

So, AF came 4 days early!! Nothing like smacking me in the face and telling me "hey, your not pregnant dummy, all those "symptoms" were all in your head!" Which kind of sucks because we are going out of town this weekend, but oh well, I'm still excited to get away for the weekend and see some family!
I have to admit I was so mad last night when I could feel it coming, and very crabby this morning when I went to work. But, between my husband and my friend at work, they made me laugh most of the day, so that kept my mind off of it. I really didn't think my husband understood how frustrated I was about it until this morning. He could obviously tell I wasn't in a good mood, and asked me why I was in such a bad mood, and I said, it doesn't matter you don't understand, and he told me not to assume, that he understands it can get frustrating, and basically told me that I am only 27, I don't have to worry about it, I have a lot of time. Then was being silly all morning trying to make me laugh. All month, I told myself, if I am not pregnant I will need to think of something to tell myself that its not a big deal to not get depressed about it, that didn't happen, but my bad mood only lasted a couple hours. I made an appt with my doctor for my "yearly" appt, so I think that just gives me something to look forward to, so they can tell me if something is wrong or not, which I think will put me at ease a little bit.
I really should be thankful for what I have. My friend told me today that I have so much going for me, that I shouldn't worry about it. I do have a GREAT husband, a good job, a nice home and the best family! I have several trips planned, so I really shouldn't be complaining. I'm going to New York in about 3 weeks, we are going on a cruise in October and we are going away this weekend! I really am thankful for everything I do have, I couldn't ask for a more loving and hilarious husband. I know that he has pulled me out of those times where I just want to sit and watch TV all day and not talk to anybody, and feel sorry for myself. He basically tells me to get my ass up and do something :) Sometimes I get mad at him for sounding so insensitive, but I know its what is best for me.